Tuesday, October 24, 2006 @ 6:02 PM
Well God.
I'm sixteen. No doubt. I'm growin' up. I'd say it's a point of time in my life that's gonna have drastic change.
Appearance, character, surrounding.
What would be of me after O's.
God, I seriously don't want to grow up. It just scares me thinking about growing up.
I suddenly felt like Peter Pan. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to start being crafty(as what I always thought adults to be). I don't want to have to worry about my appearance, and I don't ever want to compete. I don't even want to think about love or marriage. All of it are just problems, problems and problems. I don't want. But I know I'm growing up. Syptoms are out. Gosh, I don't want.
But God, I have to grow up, eh?
How scary.
The truth is, when we're older and mature, we know we don't see things as before. Things wouldn't be as simple- evrything would be complicated. We get crafty. Unable to trust one another. Competing each other in every area.
How sick.
How pure can our motives be like when we were young? How much can we trust one another?
God, even if I have to grow up- please give me that child-like heart. That child-like heart for You is all I'm asking for.
I may turn against the world and all- never let me turn against You. Never, ever, let me question about You.
Just let me believe like a child that my Daddy is real.
That's all I'm asking for.
Well. Time to study.